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Genny18
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Country: United States
State: New York
Birthday: 1/11/1980
Gender: Female
Interests: sleeping, writing poems, collecting Pooh and Piglet stuff, teaching the precious children of Tarcq, being an asian Betty Crocker
Expertise: Being a good listener and the crazy person that I am.
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
3/18/2002
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| So, I should be sleeping right now, but I can't so I decided to write in this. Just to let you know I am still alive and haven't gone anywhere. Been busy with work and some things happened at home. I think I am feeling the same way as before when I went through my breakup. It's so strange how things can change in just a matter of mins. or days or years. Take the weather for instance, we can expect rain at anytime because it's so unpredictable in the humid weather. Things can come at you and just stab you right there, but are you willing to accept it? I thought I faced reality when I gone through what I gone through, but I face a greater reality just about two months ago that changed my whole family forever. I can't do anything about it and I can't act fearless like before. However, it still hurts and I can only accept how it is and just go through the process slowly.
On another note, work is ok. I had to change my lesson a million times, but that's ok. I have a kid that writes so slow and two that are way advanced. However, I make the most of it even though I think I will go insane after this summer.=P
I have a new hobby-watching soaps. During the weekend, I spent the whole time watching reruns of the soaps for the week. It was so blissful. So now I am obsessed with it like I was back then in HS. I unwinded before watching today's episode of one of the soaps. That is why I am still up and writing on this when I am suppose to be sleeping, but hey who cares if I have tomorrow.....hahhahaha......anyways, I think that's enough for me. time to go into lala land. Till again. (caution-might contain grammar/spelling errors due to fatigue, please forgive the writer for not proofreading it b4 sending.=P...sorrie Dee.)
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| Jenny's back. Another month rolls ahead and we are in the mist of another summer. So much has happened these past months. I found out a friend had passed away. That's not even that sad part. The sad part was how she passed away. I couldn't help to ask why? Why would a person do such a thing? Though I didn't know her that well, she was such a wonderful person. The only memory I have of her is a sweet comment she wrote on one of the websites. I hope God will be with her family and friends during this tough time.
Sometimes when life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. Ok, maybe that's a bad way of explaining this. Well, I got some interesting info about a certain thing. Actually it's more like this-I thought I was going to settle something, but in turn it gave something else to me and I found out something else as an added bonus. Although I could say no, but somehow I feel like this is a sign or something. I really don't know. One thing is I am really tired of people asking me questions about it. It's just starting to get really annoying. I know they mean well, but, to put it nicely, I will deal with it on my own. It might sound cruel or might sound like I'm making excuses, but I rather just take my time and rethink my position on it. About the bonus, I am shocked. Maybe it's for the best I guess. Even though I am a little disappointed of it. Oh well......
My uncle went back to the hospital again, but his out now. Been driving my mom to go see him and picking her up afterwards. A little frustrating, but when family is down, you gotta be there for them. In my case, drive my mom to see him. However, I did get to see my aunt's brother's baby. He is so cute. He smiles and laughs all the time unless he is tired. I was holding him and kept on twisting around like a dog. He really adapts well with other people. Some babies just cry if they don't see their mom. I think my mom is having fun helping my aunt's mom out with the baby. I can see the wheels turning in her head for some grandkids...hahahahha...Not anytime soon. Maybe when the right person comes along, but that won't be happening anytime soon either.=)
Onto to some other news. I am really sad to hear that two of my students left, but two came back. That means I have the whole herd of K-1.=P I love those kids dearly, but sometimes it scares me to think how much stuff they can retain. This one boy(Jovial) didn't really understand a lot of his phonics before, but now he knows how to sound out words better than one of the 1st graders. However, he is starting to become a little pushy now. He refuses to do his work sometimes. Which really puzzles me because he would ask me for more work all the time. Still, it's good progress for him. My only wish for these kids is to do well in school and not to succomb to peer pressure. So hopefully they will know better. I don't want them to do things just to get attention because I get the feeling that some do. Although, they get up in your face sometimes, I feel like the kids keep me sane most of the time. Of course, the precious teachers as well. I especially look forward to friday because it goes quick in a breeze. Plus I get more time to converse with the rest of the teachers. Don't get that during the week because everyone leaves and leaves poor Jenny all alone...hehehehe...j/k.....all in a day's work.=P
Found this on someone's site:
"A smile costs nothing but gives much.
It enriches those who receive without making poorer those who give.
It takes but a moment, but the memory of it sometimes lasts forever.
None is so rich or mighty that he cannot get along without it,
and none is so poor that he cannot be made rich by it.
Yet a smile cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen,
for it is something that is of no value to anyone until it is given away.
Some people are too tired to give you a smile.
Give them one of yours,
as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give."
- Author unknown
Anyways, till another time. take care, be well and for you allergy sufferers out there, May the tissues be with you...heehee.=D Love ya all.
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| Well, it's been awhile, almost two months to be exact. These two months just drifted by. A lot has happened. So far, work has been keeping me busy. I have piles of hw that I put off and it's starting to accumulate. Life has been ok. I wouldn't call it the greatest, but yea I am hanging in there. Perhaps I bury myself in work just to forget about things or perhaps I just realize that the things or people that matter the most, seems like nothing. Like if they care, they would ask about you.
I am trying to deal with some things. Mainly trying to talk with some people about a certain issue. It was until a week ago after another stressful day work when I had a little conversation with someone. I was hesitant to ask him, but it just came out. The more I ponder at his answer, the more I realized the truth. He reminded me of someone I once knew. Similar personality. Too bad he is not single or I would go for him...hahhaha....j/k. Anyways, I am scared of facing the facts because I know what the outcome will be like. Sometimes I feel confident in what he said, but other times I'm just too chicken to do it. And yea, I don't know it all made sense, but that's how I feel now. Seems like I talk more with work people more than others now. Suddenly it's a shift. Before it used to be the opposite, but then again I did work there yet, but still. I tried my best and I have failed. So maybe I should just drop everything and enjoy the moments or what's left of it? My biggest regret right now is not doing it earlier.
Anyways, enough of that. Can't wait for baseball season to come. So I can have something to watch on TV.=) Plus spring break is almost here. However I will be working, so boo hoo. Gosh, I need another vacation. Other than, things are just peaches and cream. I been trying to get my butt to Crate and Barrel to get this bundt cake pan and I never succeeded and it's driving me crazy. Ok then so I got tagged by Dee. Not sure if anyone will read this, but yea, if I tagged you-TOUGH.....hehehe. So for your viewing pleasure:
Xanga Tag
Tagged by my beloved carrot-Diana
Rules of the Game:
Tagged victim must come up w/ 9 different points of his/her perfect lover. Tag 9 victims to join this game and leave a comment to notify of tag If tagged again, no need to post a 2nd time.
1. Be yourself.
2. Love me just the way I am.
3. Share my beliefs.
4. Don't put on a macho face like nothing is wrong.
5. Don't be competitive.
6. Cook and clean...hehhehe....actually I would want the cooking part so we can cook together.
7. Good personality and trustworthy
8. Wouldn't care if I were cantonese......we are all asians and created equal
9. Share my passions in sports and wouldn't hurt if you like the Yankees(added bonus).
the people I nominate whom I think would read this:
Fotia
Blu3bubbl3
Aznhypergirl82
Rurounikenshin
DumZounD
Wingzero4
RPdon
Till we meet again...........Happy Spring!!
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| I can't it's almost the end of Jan. Time goes by so fast.
Nothing much going on with me these past few weeks. I
reached yet another birthday. Happy birthday to me.=)
Pretty quiet since I didn't do anything. I wasn't expecting
anything, but I was a bit sad that some people forgot. However,
my brother surprised me with something that made up for that
feeling. I was eyeing something for a long time and was kinda too
cheap to get it for myself so I passed on it and plus i was saving for
my vegas trip. Then he got it for me.
Hmm...what else did I do. Well, I just worked and worked and
worked. Along that, I drive my mom to see my uncle and picked her
up. It's been tiring doing that, but yea, family is family.
No matter how annoying, stressing and nerve-racking it is, as someone
told me, you gotta hang in there. Now I am sick of driving.
Too bad I can't take a chopper or get chauffeur myself...hehehhe..Work
is ok. I guess I was a little bothered with my 4th graders.
These kids don't take it seriously. Then I found out one girl
lied to her mom about me not collecting hw. I got so nervous last
friday because I felt so bad. I gave the girl so many times to
hand it in, that it didn't sink in I should have asked the mom.
So the mom came and questioned my boss and I didn't realized the girl
was doing this. So basically I could hardly sleep because I knew
I would have to faced the mom on friday. Normally I am ok when
talking to parents, but for some reason it was different with her
mom. I felt like it was also my fault because I didn't talk to
the mom and the mom was the one who caught it first and I was like the
clueless one. The feeling took me over and I got irritated with
the class because they were noisy too. I felt so bad that I had
to ask one of the other teachers to help me with something twice.
He was so nice about it. The three kids I threw to him looked
like I was rejecting them. In the end, when the girl's mom came
we had a really long talk and it just made me realize, how tough it is
to be a mom. Hearing the stories she was telling me about how
hard it was to take care of her daughter. I felt a bit
better having apologized on my part. Now, i need to step up my
game plan. Need to reinforce better rules and make then
understand that this is also real and it's not acceptable. This is a
school regardless. I hope I can make it work. Now if only I
can make them study their voc. words better and get 90's-100's than
20's-40's. It's tough. That's
why I have a good support system in the 3 teachers I talk to.
Thank God for them even though they like to make fun of me. It's
all good, I get my turn too...hahhaha FYI: tax-free week is Jan. 30-Feb.5. More shopping for me! I definitely need it.
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| Happy New Year everyone....yes, I know a little late. However,
it's still early since we are only 8 days into the year.
So, basically I have been working everyday now since one of the
teachers went on a trip. Aside from that, I have been shuttling
my mom to and from the hospital. That is what's dragging me
down. I kinda blew up on my mom the other day. Seriously,
my uncle turned my whole family upside down. It's sad to have a
family member in the hospital because of all the hassle. My
grandpa is now mad at my aunts because they go see him everyday after
work and don't come home till 9-10pm. My dad is getting a little
annoyed at my mom, heck, I am a little annoyed too. Only thing to
do is pray. At the rate right now, it seems he will stay for a
least another couple of weeks.
So, I am kinda enjoying my vacation. Nothing much to do so I
volunteer to go into work everyday. It's been ok. I survived the
first week. Going into my second week now. I don't have a
big load of work anymore. You can say I kinda organized my
things. Hope it will last. I tried to work out a rewards
system for the little ones, but it kinda failed because of their lack
of listening. Kids are kids. Can't tell them to sit
properly and be quiet for 5 mins. I even bought some M&M's as
an reward for them. Only one kid was the quietest one.
After they said the boy got some candy, they quieted down a bit; until
someone made a remark and they when back to their old ways. It's
funny sometimes the things they say. I guess when you actually
teach them, you see the other side of them. Just like how you get
to know someone.
Anyways, nothing new with me. Just busy I guess and spending like
crazy. Taking in some sales that I was deprived of when I was
sick during the last week of Dec.=) Plus some stores gave me some
birthday offers so I took the opportunity to travel to the city
yesterday and browse around. Got some things and still awaiting
on some other stuff. I am turning into a
shopoholic..hehehe....well then, need some rest to tackle a new
day. Have a good week.
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